Let's talk about abundance
abundance
is a topic
in which I have had a great deal of
interest through the years
and so have many people
and the first thing I came
to understand about abundance
was that I
want to begin to look at it deeply and
when I began to receive my information
from up higher authority is that I have
been miss defining what abundance really is
that I thought that abundance was stuff
they had to do with how much stuff I had
and I hate to be simplistic here
and I really hate to be really obvious
here with what I'm going to tell you
because I know you already know this
but for those of you who have
forgotten that you know I'd like to remind you
of what I was reminded of in my dialogue
that true abundance has
nothing to do with anything that I am having
and everything to do with what I am being
let me tell you how I wound up in this chair
just to give you a little bit of background
on how all this began
in 1992
I had reached the end of the line for me
in 1992 I had reached a point where I
was losing again another committed
relationship with a significant other
my career had reached a dead end
my health was falling apart
I mean nothing was working in my life
and this relationship that I had with my
significant other was the one that I
knew would last forever
and there it was
in front of my face just disintegrating
right in my hands it wasn't the first
time that such a relationship had
disintegrated right in front of me
nor was it the second
nor was it the third or the fourth,
so I knew that there was something I don't know here
the knowing of which would
change all of this for me I couldn't
seem to find the formula
I was either doing something that I did love but I
but I was dead broke or I was making enough
money to skim by and you know making it through
but my soul was dying a thousand deaths
I didn't seem to know how to put
the two together you know not for very
long and if I did get him together - I
swear like about six or eight months
it would all fall apart, all of this was
happening at the same time, now see
usually God had been better than that it
was usally one thing or the other
before in my life but at this particular
period for reasons that still aren't
clear to me it was all at once at the
same time
Oh God said let's give him a triple
whammy let's do the old career
relationship body number the same week
and one night I threw back the covers of
the bed because I had awakened in the
middle of the night still with rage and
upset over how my life was I stormed out
into the larger part of the house
looking for answers in the middle of the night
I went to where I always went for
answers in the middle of the night but
there was nothing decent in the
refrigerator that night so I went to do
couch instead and there I sat on the
couch you know 4 o'clock in the morning
on the couch stewing in my own juice as it were
and then I called out to God
I thought well I can run around and break
up the house you know tear apart the
dishes or whatever but I sat there and I
called out
what it take to make this game work
somebody tell me the rules
I promise I'll play just give me the rules, you know
and after you give them to me, don't change them
and I asked a
ton of other questions as well and then
I saw on the coffee table in front of me
there happened to be a yellow legal pad
lying there there's a pen next to it so
I picked it up flicked out on lamp and I
began to write to my anger out, you know
seem to be a safe quiet way to deal with
it at 4:15 in the morning
I don't know
how it is with you and you are angry and
when you're writing but I write being a
really big when I'm getting angry and there I was
what does it take
to make life work
and what have I done to deserve a life of such
continuing struggle
and on and on I went like that for about 20 minutes
just writing out my anger you
know defying the universe to give me a
response, and then I finally calmed
myself down just a bit I felt just a
little bit better and I thought okay
that worked I have to share this process
with some friends that works
took the pen to put it down and the pen would not
leave my hand I looked at that and I
thought isn't that interesting my hand
is cramped up from all that writing so
you know I find a reason
I brought the pen back to the paper for
reasons that aren't clear to me now and
a thought came to me a little voice
right over here just over my right shoulder
and I call it now my voice this
voice and the voice this voice said
Neil do you really want answers to all of
these questions or are you just venting
I said well you know I, I am venting but
if you have answers I sure as heck like
to know what they are
and with that the answers came
in a flood
the answer to
every question I ever asked came to me
and so fast I felt I had to write them down
or I would forget them I see I
never intended to write a book
I was simply writing this stuff down
because I didn't want to forget this
stop that was coming to me
so I wrote it
down in a flood as fast as my hand could fly
and as I read what I was writing
it brought up naturally other questions for me
because it was astonishing stuff that
was coming off the pen so
I started
writing the questions that the answers
brought up for me and that brought more
answers and I wrote more questions and
that brought more answers and before I
knew it I was involved in an on paper
dialogue with what I later came to know
must be God
and that's the short story
of how I happened to be here
and
I wound up sending that on paper dialogue
to a publisher
and it was published, and
2 million people have purchased it
it's been translated into 24 languages around
the world it's really astonishing to see
something you've written come out in Japanese,
or Greek
and to realize that somehow or another
in fact
you've touched the entire world
so that's how I got to be sitting here
in the front of the room
I'm very clear now
that I was called on to be a messenger
I've very clear now that in
fact that's what I've always been is a messenger
and that there's no place I
can allow myself to be except in the
front of the room because I have a very
important message to share with everyone
whose life I touch
and here is the
important message I've come to share
all of you are a messenger
and there's no place else that you could allow yourself
to be except in the front of the room
and all of you have come to share a very
important message with everyone whose
life you touch and here's the important
message that you have come to share
all of them, each of them is a messenger
and here's the message all of us have come
to share with each other
hello, wake up, do you know who you really are
hello, wake up, do you understand
here's the message we've come to share
you and I are one
there's only one of us in the room
if you think that we're separate, cut it out
we're not separate, there's only one of us in the room
and there's no difference between us
and if you think there's a
difference between us, cut it out
because there is no difference between us
and stop trying to
create an artificial difference where there is none
and when you get that you
and I are one and there's only one of us
in the room and only one of us on the
planet and only one of us in all of
creation everything that causes you pain
and misery, travail and struggle, heartache
and difficulty will disappear
it will simply go away
so stop thinking that you're over there
and I'm over here
and yet there's no place where you end and I begin
such a simple elegant message
that changes everything
when will we get it
when will we get it
we'll get it
when we send it
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