Waching daily Nov 27 2017

They see my disability I see my ability

They call me disabled. I call myself differently abled. There are some incidents that happened in your life

those incidents

break you

Deform you

but they mold you into the best version of you and the same thing happened to me I

Was 18 years old when I got married my father wanted me to get married

And all I said was if that makes you happy. I'll say yes, and of course

It was never a happy marriage

Just about after two years of getting married. I met a car accident

Somehow my husband fell asleep

And the car fell in the ditch he managed to jump out saved himself

I'm happy for him, but I stayed inside the car, and I sustained a lot of injuries the list is a bit long

Don't get scared

The wrist was fractured shoulder bone and collarbone were fractured

my whole ribcage got fractured and because of the rib cage injury lungs and liver were badly injured I

couldn't breathe I

Lost you in a bowel control. That's why I have to wear the bag wherever I go

Free work tear off my backbone were completely crushed, and I got paralyzed for the rest of my life

I finally ended up in a hospital where I stayed for two and a half months. I underwent multiple surgeries

One day doctor came to me and he said well

I heard that you wanted to be an artist, but you ended up being a housewife. I have a bad news for you

You won't be able to paint again

Because your wrist and your arm are so deform. You won't be able to hold a pen again

Next day doctor came to me and said

Your spine injury is so bad you?

Won't be able to walk again

Because of your spine injury and the fixation that you have in your back

You won't be able to give birth to a child again

That day I was devastated I asked my mother

Why me and that is where I started to question my existence

But why am I even the life and that is where I realized that the words have the power to heal the soul

My mother said to me

This too shall pass

God has a greater plan for you. I don't know what it is, but it surely has

And in all that stress increase somehow or the other those words were so magical that they kept me going

One day I asked my brother's I know I have a deformed hand

But I'm tired of looking at these white walls in the hospital and wearing these white scrubs. I'm getting tired of this

I want to add more colors to my life. I want to do something bring me some colors bring me some small canvas

I want to paint

So the very first painting I made was on my death bed

Where I painted for the very first time?

It was not just an art piece or just my passion

It was my therapy, and then I was discharged and I went back home

And I went back home

And I realized that I had developed a load of pressure ulcers on my back and on my hip bone. I was unable to sit

There were a lot of infections in my body a lot of allergies the doctors wanted me to lie down on the bed straight

for not six months

for not one year

For two years I was bedridden

Confined in that one room looking outside the window

Listening for the birds chirping and thinking maybe there will be a time when we'll be going out with the family

And enjoying the nature

That was the where I realized how lucky people are that is the time?

Where I realized?

That the day I'm going to sit

I'm going to share this pain with everyone to make them realize how blessed they are and don't even consider them lucky

That day I decided that I'm going to fight my fears

We all have fears

fear of unknown

fear of losing people

fear of losing help money

We want to excel in career. We want to become famous want to get money. We are scared all the time

So I wrote down one by one all those fears

And I decided that I'm going to overcome these fears one at a time. You know. What was my biggest fear divorce I?

was trying to cling on to this person who didn't want me anymore, but I said no I

have to make it work, but the day I decided that this is nothing but my fear I

liberated myself by setting him free

And I made myself emotionally so strong that the day. I got the news that he is getting married. I sent him a text and

I'm so happy for you, and I wish you all the best and he knows that I pray for him today

number two was I won't be able to be a mother again and

That was quite understanding for me

But then I realize there are so many children in the world all they want is acceptance

So there is no point of crying just go and adopt one and that's what I did

People think that they will not be accepted by the people because we in the world of perfect people are imperfect

so I decided that instead of starting an NGO for disability awareness, which I know will not help anyone I

Started to appear more in public

I started to paint I decided that I'm going to join the national TV of Pakistan as an anchorperson

And I've been doing a lot of shows

For last three years, I became the national football ambassador for UN, Women Pakistan

And now I speak for the rights of women children to talk about inclusion diversity

Gender equality which is a must?

Every time I go in public are almost like

Always it big TV smile on my face and people. Ask me. Don't you get tired of smiling all the time?

What's the secret I always say one thing?

Then I have stopped worrying about the things that I had lost the people that I've lost

things and people who were meant to be with me are with me and

sometimes

Somebody's absence make you a better person cherish their innocence. It's always always a blessing in disguise

Live your life fully

Accept yourself the way, you are be kind to yourself

Be kind to yourself. I'll repeat be kind to yourself and only then you can be kind to others

Love yourself and spread that love

Life will be hard there will be turmoil there will be trials, but that will only make you stronger

So when you accept yourself the way, you are the world recognizes you it all starts

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