Hi.
Today I dediced to do something
crazy, absurd, maybe irresponsible
but I decided to do it.
With the fear in my heart,
because I want to cut back many things.
When someone is in the mood for a big change
it means that she wants to change something in her life so
now I'll cut my hair.
It doesn't mean that I'll cut my life or any other things,
but do you remember when I said:
"I get anxious easily and I like long hair"?
It's true. I really like having very long hair.
But, since without extentions my cut is-
Well...
This?
And more of all it's the same since 4 years
I decided to turn around my life.
And I'll start with
Myself.
And now it'll be:
"Oh no, Eleonora, why?
Don't worry, I'll go to the hair salon after this
Let's start with-
Oh my god, I'm doing it, I'm really doing it
AHHH
I'm really fed up with negativity that people bring to me
only because envy or ignorance
for everything, I'm really tired of
adapting myself.
I'm tired of...
I'm sick of adjusting myself, of being liked by people
because if they don't like you it's not good.
I really never gave a *quack* about fashion,
about what went in style before,
about what I had to do or why I had to do it.
I always followed my dreams
and what I liked
and so I'll keep going like this.
Now I'm doing this in a *quack*ed up way
because later my hairdresser will adjust the cut
Well, now I look shitty.
I cut wigs, but my hair is so
thin that...
Oh my god-
What a strange sensation.
Well.
Don't try this at home!
Unless you go to the hairdresser afterwards.
I decided to do this a long time ago
but I never had the courage, because...
They'd never looked good on me, people'd never liked it
What can I do with shorter hair?
I want them to be longer!
And so many other things...
And now I'm cutting them in a really messed up way
because I have no Idea how I'm supposed to do it-
Even if I watched some tutorials before, it was useless-
You can say I've messed up badly,
You can say "You did wrong, you don't look good",
because now I'm going to say a true thing that
I really think:
"I dont't really give a hot damn"
*I don't even know if these word can go togheter*
I'm lucky, because my hair grow really fast.
Well, strangely I never had really long hair
Mainly because I always had ruined ends
since I always changed hair colour and I also bleached them.
So, obiviously...
They're gone!
I was about to cut my shirt!
That's it!
Ok!
I bet that my friend, who also gave the scissors to me,
it's like screaming madly at this.
Whoa!
Actually they seem a lot
like how I had them before putting my extensions on.
They're identical.
But I don't want to cut more, because
I'm not that good indeed, but...
It's a huge satisfacion that you cannot understand!
It is...
Wow.
Oh my got I still got some strage locks!!
Actually I want also to dye it with a colour even if
I've already done it, it's a bit more lighter
a kind of grayish light bown,
because I want to put a dye on it.
But...
Let's see if it stays...
Why?
Now you're asking "Why did you do that?"
"Tell me why the heck did you cut
you hair with the scissors by yourself-"
*no worries they're professional*
"Why!?"
"WHY?!"
Because i wanted to do...
to feel a little bit more like myself
And no, don't panic, I did't break up with my boyfriend
so you can, uhm, be really calm.
I simply would like to have an aim
I would like to be ad fired up as the beginning
because I really feel that I got softer, to mean that
since I was staying with a person who
didn't help me to be myself, actually
he discouraged me, he said that I did't look good.
"Well, look, it's embarassing" or other things,
bulls*t like that.
And also with japanese society which is,
apart from Harajuku and
all the things that actually are in pop cuture,
japanese "normal" society,
if you have colorful hair or you dress up in a strange way,
They go like: "Ah, oh my God! Who knows what you do!"
"Ah, you don't have an hight social level!"
And some bullsh*t like that.
And more of all I am
a really emotional person, so also youtube comment
hurt me a lot of times,
but it doesn't touch, it doesn't influence my life
because I don't live sitting on the sofa
waiting for the things to happen.
I try to do my best,
and moreover I try to keep doing some things
I feel a bit lost?
I have a 25-year-breakdown?
I don't know! Maybe yes!
With my hair like this I suck?
I don't care.
I feel really cool.
By the way I feel really lightwieght!
I felt like a bunch of straw down here!
So, you'll see me with short hair!
I'll use some wigs to have longer hair
and for now I hope that
if not for work, for which I must do it,
I would like to not put my extensions on for a bit,
because, as you see they have halved my hair a lot
Because here they do it with some stuff...
Now we'll go on at the hairdresser, let's do the color!
They're more green than blue, but
they're cool!!
Oh my God!! But they're green!!!
Oh my god!!!
They're emerald!
I feel a lot like Hatsune Miku!!
Ok, they're a bit strange, but i like them!
I've just had my hair done at the hairdresser's
and it's a lot better!
I have such a cut!
It has a really good shape!
And I decided to not have them cut more than this
because otherwise we couldn't see this beautiful green!
So I decided to do it later, for now I like them a lot!
I'm getting excited and I have to say that by changing hair
I also changed my style a bit, even if I had those things at my house before
but they simply didn't go on well with my previous style
Now I'm waiting for my photographer friend
who's arriving here, and then we'll take some pictures!
What a radical change guys, it will be a bomb!
Ahh!
I like them a lot, they're saucy!
Interesting!
You can't say "It's a beautiful colour!"
Maybe for a bit of you it is like this but
maybe someone could prefer brown hair, or blond or red
And no! I'm like-
the geen and blue one! That's too cool!
I took advantage today and made a bit of shopping
so as you see it's lightly fuller,
just a bit!
I really just have only four piece of clothes more but
at least I have some of them!
I hope to make some interesting outfits and photos soon!
And let me know what do you thin-
Oh my God I have to laugh!
Let me know what do you think about it!
If you like the cut, the colour
and what do you think about the new style, because
basically I want to change everything.
I want to adapt only to myself
to what I like and I want to have a totally different image
because my dreams and my goals have changed through time
and I hope you'll get it too!
See you soon!
I send you a huuuge kiss!
Se you next time, mata neee ~
Kyō wa mite kurete, arigatō! ~ (Thanks for watching today!)
Byeee! ~
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